This is the true story of a man's journey of self-discovery that began the moment his 4-month-old baby was found dead in his crib. There was no sound, no struggle, and a postmortem failed to show an adequate cause of death. This is an in-depth account of the profound effects his baby son's death had on his life, telling in graphic detail the effects of buried emotion on family, friends and business relationships. It is a painful, and sometimes desperate story of a man searching for soul purpose. It is the story of the pain of a father's deepest core wound, his struggle with grief and guilt, and ultimately, his triumphant arrival at forgiveness and acceptance of loss. This is the author's truth about death, and ironically, how it led to his life. His story revealed his life purpose to him and revealed who he is and why he is here. If you have been touched by grief, sadness, suicide, depression, loss or abandonment, it may help you make sense of life and death and help you find who you are and why you are here Join the author in this epic voyage from the pain and sorrow of a father' s grief, to the whole new world of forgiveness and love.