Life is filled with many days of joy and days of heartfelt pain. In order to live a fulfilled and fruitful life, you have to know how to handle those days when you feel like giving up. Adversity is a spirit killer. There were days in my life when I questioned the meaning of my life and asked God, "am I supposed to live the rest of my life feeling like this...being made to feel like a failure and never accomplishing anything" So many test and so many distractions had me bound. Although this is my story - my life, I want you to find yourself in me and use me as a template of what to do when those times of adversity press upon you. There were times when I was pushed down to my lowest point, filled with self hatred and feeling unloved, but please note in reading my story, you will see that there is victory in the fight if you can just have faith and patience in the test.