In this heart-breaking memoir, the author describes what it was like to lose his older brother and only sibling, Lee, to paranoid schizophrenia. The story begins in childhood, when his brother mentored him and was effectively his de facto Dad in an already dysfunctional family. Eventually, Lee becomes grandiose, delusional, and even violent, forcing the author and his father to initiate commitment proceedings. Yet the story does not end at this point, as Farmer and his family must still cope with the devastating fallout of the disease and its ever-frustrating dimensions.