This book is about my life journey, about finding myself as I was lost in my fears and the battle with shame and guilt, and about how my spiritual life-guided by God-is full of twists and turns as I experienced his leading voice and as he silently toured me through it all: the struggle of an inherited fear of being alone; my suppressed feelings of hope for a better day through a life of pain, struggles, hurt, and disappointments; trying to reach, through faith and hope, a place of peace, happiness, and true joy within myself; being taught life struggles through shame, pain, and personal struggles; victory through inner healing and a meaningful purpose; the lost hope experienced in witnessing my husband's murder; and learning that we can spend time helping others, never ourselves. We can carry others when they need carrying but leave ourselves behind with no one to carry us but God. Sometimes our heartfelt love for God is tested, and we should not allow that test to push us away from his presence. This is to encourage the reader that your hopes and dreams, which are in you, are put there as a goal and platform for your life. No matter how long it takes, keep hoping you will fulfill that destiny and keep reaching, and the inner spirit will guide you, help you, and heal you then place you in life's purpose. You will learn that there is a hidden plan for everyone's life, but unfortunately, everyone doesn't push long enough to acquire it.