Abandoned. Rejected. Ridiculed. Humiliated. I was a glutton for punishment, it seems. Each time I was hurt, I moved right on to the next source of pain. Whether it was the consequence of someone else's actions or a byproduct of my own, pain seemed to find me even when I was not seeking it. With my focus on pain relief and nothing more, I made one wrong decision after the next ... until I changed my focus.
Though I had known Jesus most of my life, it was not until I trusted him to lead me that I came to know him and his majesty. And it was not until I returned my life to him that he would reveal to me that he had had me in the palm of his hand the whole time.