This book is a journey through parts of my life trying to understand myself, my loves and to a certain extent my addictions. I did not write this book to cleanse my mind but, surprisingly enough, it has helped. Writing this on paper made me realise it is myself that has created most of my problems and what a powerful influence the brain... subconscious and conscious... is. I continue to try to control my thoughts but it is a daily challenge. I am still a work in progress.