This book is most important to me - I have optimism for my readers - optimism - that my readers will share in this true miracle - that this book carries - I was working on a coffee table in my work shop back in the year of 1986 - when four words became present in my conscious mind - Honesty - Purity - Unselfishness - Love - they were to be embedded in my very soul - to the degree - I had no choice in the implementation of these principles - they were to be incorporated in my being - at the exact moment of inception - that is what this book is all about - I found out some seventeen years later - these same principles were given to Jesus - to His disciples - from the Master Himself - they are called the Four Absolutes - since 1986 - these principles have nourished my soul - it carries with it - deep understanding - for mankind -
I come to the twilight of my years on this planet - called earth - the pain of life is anchored in my being - the swiftness of my legs no longer carry my shank with dexterity - the agility of my body that once governed all of my actions - has slowed somewhat - the memory stands tall - without exception - the memory of that little boy in the orphanage - on that snow filled day - left at the bottom of the hill - that had to be walked up - in a blinding snow storm from whence he came - the tears that were shed that Sunday were insurmountable - the desperate loneliness that has prevailed every day - every day of my life - is most haunting - the memory of my Grandfather picking me up after I ran away from that second orphanage - still remains - I was a little over seven years of age - the power in his arms - as he held me - I still feel - how lucky I am - the memory of my Godfather - how he loved me - as I write this - the tears fl ow - not because the loneliness has dissipated - I weep for the love they transmitted - for they are still with me - I lacked the ability to read - kept back two grades before I was in the fourth - on the streets many a day - bought my own clothes - shoes - food - etc. - made my own money - during this period - from seven years on up - I drank - wine - liquors - beer - by the time I was fourteen - whiskey bottles were stashed many a place - every opportunity afforded me - Korea was on - joined the Marine Corp - when I got out - went to the American Academy of Dramatic Arts - to became an actor - got married in New York - in 1958 took off for Hollywood - did many shows - four children later - by 1966 - I stood outside of 20th Century Fox - not knowing what show I was on - let alone my lines - alcohol had taken its' toll - by 1969 I was a despondent mumbling soul - one ounce of alcohol - rendered me immobile - holding a bottle of gin in my hands sometime in July of 1969 - the words uttered at that moment - "please God help me - I don't want to drink this"- my cry of despair - answered - this July 2014 - 45 years will have passed since that moment - I have been honored by two Presidents - written two books -The End Was But A Beginning -The Silent Voice - served over a million meals on the street of Skid Row - Los Angeles - with the greatest gift granted to me - freedom of self - along with -Honesty - Purity - Unselfi shness - Love -