**Strong Language**Explicit Sex**Intense situations *This is Shea's POV. CANNOT BE READ AS A STAND-ALONE I waited my entire life for one singular moment. Everything I had endured-all the pain and suffering-I would go through it all again, if I knew she was waiting for me. Ryan Chase was the only woman I ever loved. My obsession. My desire. When she came home . . . loving her hadn't been easy. The road to our particular happiness was paved with boulders. I became who she needed me to be. Who she wanted. Marriage and children- they were a dream we both shared. Until a nightmare threatened to take it all away. Is love supposed to be this hard? How long before the person I'm pretending to be begins to crack? I'm a liar. A fraud. He is surfacing. She's the only reason I survived. I lived. She is the reason I breathe. Now, when she needs me the most-I'm transforming into the person I thought I'd buried years before. I can't be without her. She gives me purpose and makes me whole. Nevertheless, the universe chose a different route. God had a different plan. And right now, I'm pissed at them both