This is the true story of one man's forty year journey that began as an abused, gay teenager seeking an end to domestic violence and a better life. The story begins in the 1970s by outlining the violent family struggles that led to his brother's suspected involvement in a celebrity sibling's murder and the brother's eventual suicide during a prison escape attempt. Simultaneously, the author was discovering his own secret. After self-realization of sexual orientation, desperate efforts resulted in his running away with a man twenty years his senior and a drug dealer. Life then became further abuse and death threats from a dangerous, drug addicted partner. After being subjected to violent parents and a drug crazed lover, life became a series of relationships pervaded by deceit, death and self-compromising. Eventually, he was led through the emotional process of adopting a neglected foster child. Follow the twists and turns of a difficult journey and discover why the protagonist has no name. Author book proceeds are donated to TheTrevorProject.org