"His mission of redemption would have been shattered, and it could have amounted to nothing--had I succeeded in my plan. But I thought it was me who had made the leaders of His people hate Him. Now I understand it was eternally destined to be so, and I came in just as an intruder. Eventually I have helped to make sure that this evil plan against me matured and materialized at the assigned time. In other words, I have helped to bring to a successful and victorious end the very plan I set out with all my might to destroy. Tell me now Why do I still exist? Why Why Is it not only for heaven to practice His wickedness on me? Oh How I wish I could die like the earthmen do."