An exceptionally honest and emotionally precise memoir about a birth mother and the daughter she didn’t raise––an intimate portrait of motherhood in all its forms, and the long, winding road between letting go and finding each other again.

For readers of Educated and Maid, this stirring memoir traces one woman’s path from a deeply religious off-the-grid upbringing through heartbreak, reinvention, and an unexpected reunion decades in the making.

When Kate Stapleton becomes pregnant in the midst of an unstable and destructive relationship, she is forced to make the most impossible decision of her life: placing her daughter for adoption. In the years that follow, Kate rebuilds from the ground up—working in orchards, studying the harp, falling in love, becoming a mother again, and slowly learning that grief and joy can live side by side.

Then, years later, her firstborn daughter attends college just an hour away from Kate’s home. As mother and daughter begin to forge a relationship of their own, Kate must confront the question that has shaped her life: What does it mean to love a child you didn’t raise?

Read this unforgettable memoir to witness a hard-won story of love, loss, and reunion that expands our understanding of motherhood.