In his formative years, Benjamin suffers a death in the family and as a pre-teen becomes the victim of sexual trauma and as a result develops multiple personality disorder. In the early sixties, his family relocates to South Africa. What follows is a psychological thriller across a timespan of three decades, which includes the bizarre South African politics of the time. Mcpherson's alter-ego runs amok; he hates certain people with a passion. His old tormentor has been on the run for twenty years and the police are hot on both their tails. The story tracks Ben's personal growth from when he is a toddler into his thirties; his dreams, his sexual coming of age, his family and his one and only life-partner. There are clashes between the ANC and National Intelligence as well as uMkhonto we Sizwe, the armed wing of the African National Congress. Alan Mcpherson is a killer, but who is Alan? Does he even exist? And why is he so set on 'bumping into' Gouws, a sadistic paedophile?