God sees the mess inside us; he can work that mess when we ask him to. Have you experienced something in life that causes you to spiral emotionally and mentally in different directions? A personal tragedy that changed your life forever? Then one day, something comes along and alters the ugly feelings you harbored for years. You found something-a temporary relief; a long-awaited and most welcomed feeling. As mothers, daughters, sisters, and wives, we have personal battles. Some of us are born women stars with the natural ability to succeed in most aspects of life. We were safely shielded from the evil beatings of this world. For many of us, it is a constant revolving battle in our minds and in our hearts. In an instant, a dark experience alters who we are as individuals. The experience affects who we become. We continually fall short with our womanly duties and life endeavors. We crawl through life, yearning each day for a light to shine through the cracks of our soul. Many have struggled from the horrid experience of abuse; many will turn to some form of substance in search of the ability to experience a feeling other than their own. For many, it's a lifetime of fighting, a lifetime of seeking, and a lifetime of hurt. Come with me. Let me share with you my true personal experiences, trials, and tragedies. Let me take you on a journey of hope, faith, and grace.