In this deeply poignant and personal memoir, John Flint recounts the experience of his wife Patricia's diagnosis with cancer, her death, and his efforts to readjust to life afterwards. ? John uses his own experiences to explore some of the wider issues about how society responds to terminal illness, death, and widowhood. But, in a book that is touching, warm, and wise, John focuses on some of the realities of each stage from caring for a terminally ill loved one to learning to live as a widower. In doing so, John provides an insight into the real emotions and experiences of a carer and widower. He provides thoughts on the practicalities of what to expect from experiences such as the first Christmas as a widower, going on holiday alone, and the well-meant comments of others; and, in a life where 'the tears are only an eyelid away', he provides ideas on how to deal with them.