At the age of fifty-one, shattered by grief and carrying the burden of too many secrets and a lifetime of shame, Abbey picks up a pen and begins to write her story. Sexually abused by so-called "friends" when she was a teenager, Abbey lives in chaos. Call her vulnerable or call her innocent, she doesn't understand why the pattern repeats itself. Her own sense of worthlessness leads her through life in a dark cloud of self-hate. From middle-class America to a kibbutz in Israel, she lives twenty years in an open relationship, struggles to "do things right" while everything goes wrong, and tries to cope with the tragic loss of a new love to sudden death. Abbey's story is an adventure, it is a journey, and it is a lesson.