God loves his children, blesses his own, rewards those who serve him, tells us to ask and receive, and heals those who believe. Really? Then why on earth am I lying in a hospital bed with cancer? So This Is Suffering... is a first-hand, real-time account of a battle with cancer over a three month period. Told with candor, insight and humour, the author shares a world of needles and nausea, fear and fatigue, and hospitals and bad haircuts. But it turns out there was more to it all. Much more. For the experience also opened up a rich world of Biblical understanding, ministry opportunities and most of all the reality of joy in even the most desperate circumstances.