What the Reviewers said: 'Profoundly moving' ... 'Astounding' ... 'Compelling' ... 'Eloquent and engaging' ... 'Insightful' ... 'Powerful' ... 'It stays in my mind' ... 'Deserves a wide audience ' A True Story: The mystery of suffering sooner or later challenges us all ...but it is especially problematic for people who believe that there is loving intelligence behind creation. This is the true story of a psychologist who has specialized in working with individuals and organizations impacted by a sudden trauma. From childhood to adulthood in search of answers-her quest intensified after a knife attack by someone who broke into her home one night, while she was sleeping next to her five-month-old baby. This is a universal story-the search for something mysterious, glorious, transcendent, which gives our lives meaning. The writer as both a psychologist and spiritual wayfarer is sifting the dust of human experience searching for the gold which might lead us to the Beloved. The findings were unexpected, turning her earlier framework of belief in God upside down. That she went mad during the journey is a fact. That this book might be a sign of ongoing insanity is for the reader to decide.