This book is the story of my existence - a meandering spiritual voyage through the beautiful loud crazy called life. -- Dr. David Alan Black With his usual frank but gentleman-farmer honesty, Dave Black shares his reflections on his life, as he has shared it with hundreds every day through daveblackonline. Since November 2013 when his beloved Becky Lynn, wife of 37 years, went on to Heaven, Dave has been traveling a journey of grief but also a time of reflection with the immediate question of "What's next?" What does it mean to be running 5K races and climbing mountains in Europe? What do you do when the silence is deafening at 3 a.m. and you can't sleep? What has the professor learned in 40 years of teaching? These and other questions are addressed and dissected and shared as Dave gets on with living and learning more in this loud crazy called life.