Well it's been about 5 years since my Victor passed away. There's not a day that goes by that I don't think of him and that beautiful smile I would get from him every morning when we would get out of the bed. Morning breath and all He gave me the life I always wanted and provided for my kids and me after that bitter divorce from Jimmy. Now I'm in this big ole house alone the kids, still come and visit every year and call just about every other day but it's not the same. We waited over 20 years to reconnect then we're with each other for about 35 years before his death. I just can't believe he's gone. I can remember our first date, he took me to lunch we laughed and joked like ole times. This man was amazing to me. God why did you have to take him so soon after my mother? They kept me going, they believed in me when everyone else didn't. But most of all I didn't believe in me. It was a grand home going service for him. The kids paid him a wonderful tribute as well as I. His spirit was all over that church and is still around this house. There are times when I know I've shut the TV off or a light then it would come back on for no apparent reason at all. I just simply say Vic cut it out I'm okay and the same way it came on it would go off. To be honest with you I really didn't want to get married again let alone be with Victor in that way. He was a great friend, a fabulous lover, and a wonderful support system.