Dear Tamara, So much time has come and gone since the last time we saw one another. I was lonely for a very long time after losing you. Some days I struggled to accept that I would not see you or hear your voice again. I lost my best friend Sarah; remember her? She changed; everybody changed; something I was not prepared for. My sadness turned into anger, as I kept asking the question Why? over and over again. It was hard enough to accept your loss, but when my best friend and peers abandoned me too, it was too much for me to take. Death was a word I could not say for years; it was too dark too gloomy and so final. Death makes people act so differently. I thought you would always be with me and our family, forever. I am so sorry that I never said I love you before you left that night. I was so excited to get my perm that I simply forgot. Please forgive me for being so selfish! If I could go back in time, I would go back to that last time I saw you in the kitchen. I would tell you I love you, and I always will. Then I would give you the biggest hug and kiss. I miss you so much; I'm pretty sure I always will. Please don't ever forget me! I will never forget you and the time we shared. I will write you soon. Love, Your Lil' pun'kin oxox