Book 12 It's Hard When It's Soft- A remember when the story- mothering, coping- with lose, of husband, and young daughter also- going through life with up's and downs, tragic- heartbreaking, complexly, and completely emotional. A story of a young girl, being locked up for 7 years in oubliette of a room with others, and finding her new freedom, like with girls of the past too, remembering Lilly, story it all seems too familiar, locked in an orphanage of incest and creepy bounding, torched for the joy of her owner, treated worse than a dog, no the dogs have it better then Kristen did her first 7 years. "I later found out her dad used to keep her locked in a room, like a dog locked in a cage, she was like a puppy that has her snout hit too many times with the newspaper. This girl was broken mentally, emotionally psychologically, and spiritually, the evenly she went mad because I was not there for her. The sick ass hole would come into her room, and look at her and stroke her as she would sleep. She had to sleep with one eye open at all time." Nonetheless, that did not stop what happened, this girl was just branded as an 'IT' a nothing but a waste of life, with a number ID tag-ring- hanging from her young clitoris, mentally battered. (Captive) "She always fell asleep resting her head on my chest, she must have felt safe in my arms. I guess that is why she was always so tired because of him, I guess that is why she loved me, I was always there for her, and after everything, she went through. Plus, she said that she liked to hear my heart betting. Back then there was nothing more I ever wanted to be then was her hero " (Love)