From being an abused child by both family and friends of her family, Wendy turned into a psychotic shell of a being that had never actually been able to love or be loved. Starting in middle school being the oldest due to being held back a few times, her adventures continued to unfurl as a hopeless child of abuse. Mixing Pain Into Pleasure is the first of a three-part series that describes in detail the life struggles for Wendy beginning with you, the reader, finding out in this first book about some of the hell she went through as a young adult. Finding a job after high school didn't help her self-esteem, marriage didn't help her confidence, so she tries to feel needed and bakes for her co-workers and husband trying to find redemption of her self-worth while she struggles to find closure and acceptance in her own way....