Lost in a whirlwind of emotions. October 2015 hit me like a brick wall. I could now begin to understand my past, but my future remains full of mystery and unknown emotions. What story do my soul, heart, and mind tell? What if you never knew who you truly are? What if you never knew what path you are on? What if you were lost in parallel between what is right and what is wrong? What is your purpose in life? What is the meaning of your life? Will you ever truly know who you are? How do you find yourself? I sit at forty years old trying to make sense of my life, with no understanding. I wrote this book for everyone who is dealing with the debilitating mental illness and their families. I want everyone to get a glimpse of how we, my kind, endure life each and every day-the battle zone of thoughts and torrid emotions. How each day is a new struggle within itself. I know I live a lifelong battle as well as many others, our minds a like. I want this book to touch the lives of everyone. I want everyone who reads my book to have and open heart and mind to open eyes to mental illness and the havoc it plays in our lives.