An unbroken memory of the 'before life state', an enforced alignment to feelings and later, a thirst to seek answers, all contrived to become the alchemic mix that once set in motion did not allow me to cease the quest to uncover the mysteries of life. There's no doubt to my mind that without being confined to a steam tent from birth due to a deficient immune system, I would never have retained the connection to the 'inner-life'. I assume that in a 'normal' life the memory of 'life before life' fades into obscurity as new images flood the senses, even before birth - but this sensory blitz didn't happen. Using and therefore developing the senses in this physical world was limited soon after birth which must have led to a large portion of my burgeoning faculties becoming focussed on the finer feelings and images that I've since discovered perpetually stream from deep 'within'. It's a source I've grown to understand as the Soul, feelings that have been transposed into knowledge and then into wisdom after years spent tussling with trying to understand their relevance in the 'here and now'. This perceived wisdom, along with the ups and downs that gave it credence have been included in the hope it will serve to help others move towards a more peaceful and joyful life. Sat sitting, being detached, entering the 'void' or 'zone', are just a few of the terms I've heard over the years for what people relate to as a way to explain their experience of 'the silence'. It's a state of being that was thrust upon me in the first six months of life, undoubtedly reinforced by several near death experiences endured in the same period - my psyche torn back and forth across the veil to ensure the memory of the heavenly realms remained - Was the same orchestration at work to ensure that I had a mother who refused to leave my side, to be ever present to give life saving stimulation whenever silence befell me? From what I now understand, the Soul was responsible for this orchestration-, an overlighting all pervading intelligence that has apparently opened the gate to every round of life I've had since the beginning of time, gently leading me by the hand, knowing that one day I would open my eyes and 'see'. Its success in achieving this depended upon my cooperation in aligning to its wishes - or of ever wanting to The book begins with a description of how 'inner' journeys synchronised with 'outer' experiences to abruptly awaken me to the reality of a 'pre-life' world in my late twenties, an awakening that brought almost instantly, the realisation that I'd been channelling wisdom through from this source since birth. The book continues with an account of the development that opened me increasingly to 'otherworldly' experiences that deepened my knowledge of the hidden realms of being. The storyline focuses here and there on the tribulations of keeping 'inner' development balanced with an 'outer' life as husband, father and a career in construction management. Being prompted to facilitate and teach meditation helped in this task, providing the opportunity to try out emerging and realised wisdom on literally thousands of students for more than three decades, having them produce the College requirement for 'evidence of learning'. Several Chapters include explanations, most of which are the result of wisdom gleaned from within, of how anyone can 'open up' to their Soul and choose to follow its whisperings which from my perspective and experience, always lead to a more demanding but infinitely more fulfilling life. The book concludes in the present day where insights and visions for the future are shared with a view to providing a measure of inspiration and hope to those seeking explanations as to why life is often difficult to bear.