One person's experience of spiritual awakening and sadhana under the guidance of the Indian saint Baba Muktananda (1908-1982). Illustrated with numerous sketches by the author from different periods of his life (teen years in the 1960s to the present time) that reveal his state of mind and subconscious struggles for truth and meaning. This book also includes the author's reflections on Muktananda's teachings and their continuing effects on his life, written in 1994 and 2014.