I am Shelby James - self-loathing poet and artist, daughter, sister, best friend, and bisexual commitment-phobe. My life has been a lackluster existence. The only constant bright spot in my life is my best friend, my soul-mate, Veronica "Roni" Monroe. For years, I have given into my lust for both men and women, but now, at the age of thirty-two, I realize I need more than a just good booty call. I need more. While on my search for "more," I find much more than I bargained for. This time, giving into my urges may destroy everything good in my life. Follow me on my journey to find my happiness. To find the real me. To find the beauty in the darkness.