More than anything Martika Whylly wanted to know God. And being born into the Catholic faith is where she was introduced to God and learned how to pray. Growing up in a loving family, her single mother remarried an abusive man. When Martika prayed to God for help her prayers were quickly answered, but at the cost of her mother's life. Then her grandma died from an asthma attack. Her grandpa died soon after, and then her uncle was killed in a car accident. In addition to that, her father died from AIDS.As each one passes away, a part of her dies as well. Wanting to join them, she is denied and becomes reckless and doubtful that God even exists.