Guilty Prayers was penned (literally penned) over thirty years ago. It started out as an article for publication with a Christian magazine. But as life often does, it threw me a curve. The story was packed away for a move as I transitioned from one community to another. Three moves and thirty-two years later, it was found in the bottom of a file cabinet drawer. Each chapter is based on a true story with the people who were involved telling their own story and the struggles they had in dealing with their emotions. I have taken their stories and expanded each one to address what happens if we do not face the challenges that come our way as we journey through life. As I have matured, so has Guilty Prayers. You will find a common theme throughout this book. The first lesson is to pay attention to what you are thinking. We are what we think and we manifest into our lives what we think. If you think, "I am poor," then so you shall be. The second lesson you will find in this book is to know yourself. Until you know who you truly are, you will not be able to have a meaningful and deep relationship with your Creator or with anyone else. It is scary to take a look at the dark shadow side of our emotions. It is deep within these shadows that we do not want to look because we do not want to admit that we have this dark side. This shadow side of ourselves make us tremble in fear, because we do not want to admit to ourselves that we could possibly have such dark thoughts and tendencies.