Having just turned 59, author Barry Norman is dealing with the most existential crisis any of us can have - the desire to continue. Dealing with depression and suicidal thoughts for most of his life has made him wonder if there is a connection to his brain function and the events that have dotted his life. Now, with no family left except his 15-year-old diabetic and blind dog, Scooter, he pondered the need to bother anymore with continuing. So, he embarked on a stream of consciousness period of writing to see if there was any pattern in his life that could give him clues to how he has felt and how he is feeling right now. He flashes back and forward among the years of his life, and finds both the humor and agony of the events and relationships that have made the biggest impressions on him. But, has it given him any answers?