Falling for your brother's best friend isn't as fun as it's cut out to be, especially when you're so screwed up that you're terrified of commitment and being locked down. I crave freedom. I need to let go of the insanity I feel swirling in my head. But I do something even crazier than getting high or fighting like I always do. I fall for the one man who hates my guts . . . Blaze. I'm toxic. I ruin everyone and everything I touch. And yet . . . all while still needing Blaze, I crave Jonah. And allowing both of these men to love me is either going to be what saves me . . . Or what sends me toppling into the deep end. **This is book one in the Coming Alive Duet. It does end on a cliffhanger. It is an MFM menage.** Trigger warnings: cliffhanger, pregnancy, drug abuse, two men sharing one woman. Please also note that this book deals with a woman who struggles with the fact that she is pregnant, and she detests every moment of it. If this is a trigger for you, do not read.