In this heart-wrenching memoir, Leilani Tau-Schneider recounts an odyssey of teenage rebellion, abuse and the seemingly insurmountable grief of losing her first child. Tau-Schneider stresses the importance of allowing oneself to grieve, discusses the various stages of the grieving process, and relates the stages of grief to her own personal experiences. Told with insight and stark honesty, her story of coming to terms with her loss is a reminder that God's mercy does not mean an absence of suffering, and that it is indeed possible to achieve a life of purpose after grief.