What would you do if you suddenly realized you had the choice to change how you lived? Would you follow the path you're on or take a risk, knowing it could mean letting go of everything and everyone familiar? Ella Staines appears to live a happy, busy life in a leafy suburb; she has a husband in a good profession, grown-up kids who come and go, and fulfilling work. So why does she feel as if she's suffocating? Has she really forgotten who she is? Ella sets out on a journey that questions the very concept of marriage. Her quest for deeper meaning and a different understanding of spirituality leads to unexpected results that threaten to tip her over the edge. Along the way, she encounters some of her old demons-patterns, power trips, and egoistic ways-that had seemed so comfortable and that had once defined her existence. Now she must swim away from them to build a new life for herself, no matter where that may lead. In this novel, a woman leaves her life behind-her thirty-year marriage, home, family, and friends-to search for a new meaning and purpose for herself.