A heartrending true story of child neglect resulting in abandonment by parents and grandparents, referred by the author as a "couple of four" who were always together but had no room for her. They were neither rich nor poor, sick or alcoholics, separated or homeless. Lending her to a lifelong question of "why" and "Do you love me"? The author was profoundly affected by languishing in the 1940's foster care system till the age of thirteen then left with strangers and to fend for herself. She recalls how she struggled to survive and belong and how she finds fulfillment in redemption, love and giving through the miracle of attitude and faith.