Her heart had been broken. How could it ever be mended? Sometimes life has a habit of breaking a person, but Lori's discovered there's a reason for it. Better things are around the corner. She didn't realize that at first, but after things went sour, a light beckoned, an anchor in the form of a man named Jaska. He ignites her soul, understands her needs more than she does. She embarks on a journey, one that has many twists and turns, and with Jaska guiding her, she doesn't think it can go wrong. Except there are terms to their relationship, a contract they're bound by, and no matter what, they're not supposed to express how they feel about each other. It's dangerous-falling in love isn't allowed. But Lori has fallen in love, and the year Jaska has given to teach her the ways of the lifestyle is both pain and pleasure-and not only from spankings. It's pain-she loves him but can't express it. It's pleasure-she gets to spend time with him. Denial is the name of the game for both of them. Deny their feelings and everything will work out fine. But Lori knows that somewhere down the line during this year she'll have to open her mouth and tell him how she feels. The question is-when?