I am one of many adult survivors of child sexual abuse. Deathbed Reflections and Dark Matter (North Country Press 2020) have arisen from one creative voice of a male who has experienced severe trauma in his childhood which fractured his self into pieces (ego states). Some ego states were not fully integrated with the others. One of these ego states was abandoned to lie suffering and buried alive in a very dark place to be ignored. Two manuscripts authored by one voice among many survivors demonstrates the fracturing, disjointedness and need for reintegration necessary to regain wholeness.