'...I do struggle to think that James will be with someone else (even though he says he won't /cant) Realistically he would be young and would need someone. It is my belief that we have soulmates in life and at some point we are together again. I feel like this would be challenged if life is shared with another (stupid I know) I am also scared that there is nothing after death (which I don't believe but its hard not to think about it)...' Deirdre Kohler '...several times during Sandy's last year of life she told me, "I want you to love again. Being with someone else will not take away from what we had... Promise me you'll love again." So I lied to her and said I would. And as time goes on, I know for certain that once you've found your soulmate, that's it. The thought of someone "replacing" her never enters my head or my heart. So I apologize to her for saying I would love again... So revel in this moment and don't be scared that there is nothing after this. Because I'm certain there's more than "this life"...' Dan O' Deirdre Kohler has taken her shock of finding out she had a brain tumour at 31 years and turned it into a journey of healing, laughter, tears and hope. She gives an inspirational yet realistic and honest view of living with a brain tumour. She expresses the difference hope, prayer and God given faith makes in life and healing. The book is a blend of journal writings, private emails, medical information and personal input.