She'd worked hard and accomplished fast. However, by 43, 'Superwoman' Cindy Moussi was burnt-out; exhausted from trying to prove herself. She yearned for the slow life. So, she decided to take a gap year! Little did Cindy know what this choice would bring. It would be a time of profound joy and loss, anxiety, overwhelming dread, and an unrelenting terror that would become her permanent companion. It would also be a time of personal discovery and about finding the courage to trust and act upon her new insights and instincts. A child of war-torn Lebanon, Cindy traces her family history through times of starvation and massacres-a fundamental part of her personal journey to understand 'how could this happen to me?' This is not a book of answers. It is a book about opening up to life's painful events, to understand them and move past them. To reach a new, and more gentle beginning...