What the hell is wrong with me? A question a young extremely reluctant Merchant Navy Radio Officer Mark Hurst must've asked a thousand times over as blind terror overtook him each time he put to sea. A quick escape was impossible because of a strict four year contract. Heroism in the Falklands earned him respect and a medal but his dread of being at sea continued unabated. Contract completed he mercifully accepts jobs ashore but years later was forced back to sea and disaster. Rescued by Island fishermen despite his terror he attempts a single handed voyage under sail across over two thousand miles of a turbulent and unforgiving Pacific Ocean. Could he ever find a way to pay back those who helped him? Could he ever find peace with the Sea?