I wish I could take away all the hurt but I can t. I felt so nervous and sick to my stomach; I couldn't help but to have fear and anger I felt even a bigger pain as I got in the vehicle and looked at our kids Dear God, Give me strength to trust and to love my husband more than ever before. My hand started shaking, my heart pounding, and I knew this wasn't going to be a good phone call. You can still conquer the world when it's surrounded with love. "