This is a story about my life--a sojourn that began at the age of four at the hand of my alcoholic mother, and then twisted and turned throughout time and space. The chaos eventually included the decade-plus astutely spent with my partner-in-time, David Ruffin-- lead singer of The Temptations. My memoir is shared with love and sadness, and hopefully a bit of humor and profundity. The story includes a glimpse into my early life with the intention of illustrating how it happened that I was already programmed into the "victim" consciousness before he and I met. This made the move into an abusive relationship with David just a natural extension of reality as I knew it to be--love was pain. It was a struggle to both love David and to maintain sanity, which was precarious at times, as well as spare some sorely needed and well-deserved attention for Little David Yet, I am frequently reminded, and so remind the reader, that David was only human --a struggling soul. He was a beloved child of God whose particular hell-on-earth was to act jovial, while battling many powerful demons. He was a child of God who lost the battle-but not the war.