It's just women who dream of having their own children, right? And if - for whatever reason - it doesn't work out, it's them who suffer the loss. Men just stand on the sidelines letting it all happen. Hang on! Not quite true. Men get broody, too. Millions of men long to be dads and if that doesn't happen, the grief can hit just as hard. The unexpected loss experienced by men who do not become fathers remains largely unacknowledged by society. In this ground-breaking and no-holds-barred exploration, the journalist Robert Nurden goes on a journey through his own hurt and regret, unravelling the complexities of life as a childless-not-by-choice man. Robert's story is accompanied by a series of remarkable testimonies from other childless men who add their powerful voices to his, creating a sense of belonging and community. At once hard-hitting, humorous and vulnerable, 'I Always Wanted To Be A Dad' shines a much-needed light on men without children. With this invaluable book, Robert ultimately uncovers the hope that is discovered in acceptance, and the realisation that a rich and fulfilling life can still lie in wait.